A Quick Update

It has been a hot minute, hasn't it? Sorry for not posting for a while, but life got crazy for a bit and then calmed back down. Let me do a quick update for you.

I worked three jobs for several months: my provider position, at Target as a cashier, and at Sephora as a Fragrance Advisor. I had so much fun at each job, but the Target and Sephora positions were merely seasonal, so they ended in mid-January. I enjoyed the experience, but I do not think
I will ever take on 3 jobs again unless it is out of necessity! It was crazy, incredibly difficult and tiring, but so rewarding. I learned a lot about myself, and do not regret taking all of that on. I made it through, and feel proud that I was able to do all of that without going absolutely crazy.

I spent my summer working almost constantly with children, whether that's my usual job, babysitting, or volunteering at work and kids camps. I didn't have too much time to myself but it was a great summer and definitely rewarding! I ended the summer with a trip to California and Disneyland with my best friend, which was the perfect way to transition back to school after a whole year off.

Speaking of which, going back to school after taking a year off is definitely one of the more difficult things I have ever had to do. I do not think I realized how expensive everything is when I did my first year, but this time around I am painfully aware. It scares me to see how many loans I am taking out and how much debt I am wracking up, but I know in the end it will be worth it when I have my degree and can do what I love and make more than minimum wage. For now, I am content doing my best on my schoolwork and trying not to throw up because of the smelly kid I sit next to in one of my classes.

I have been growing mentally and spiritually and realizing many things about my past that have affected me today, some I am pretty sure I knew but was denying and hiding from myself, and some that have only recently come to light. It is always interesting to know how you become who you are, and as I am getting into psychology it is of particular interest to me, but I am still amazed every day at how complex the human mind can be.

I have recently gotten into a new relationship, which I will not speak on more than to say that things are going great so far. That is all.

My writer's block is still going strong, and I am not feeling as inspired by what I am writing but I am persevering. Some days I can only write a couple sentences, others a paragraph or two. I have been struggling hardcore with dialogue and making it natural and not forced, and I am doing my best to have my characters do the talking and not myself, but for whatever reason, the stories just aren't coming out. Even still I continue to write, hoping one day to have a breakthrough or realize that what I am writing is not as bad as I feel it is.

This was just a quick update post that I feel is all over the place, but hopefully putting this out there will inspire me to keep up with this blog more often. I always did love blogging my thoughts and found it super therapeutic and freeing to do. For now, that is all and I shall leave you with this.

Thanks for putting up with me,
Jaina