I feel as if I make a post related to a new 'life change' every few months. Is this what being in your 20s is like?! Life keeps changing and God keeps telling me to go different directions (and forcing me to move when I decide I don't want to change).
I have worked at my retail job for a year now and have loved it! I love my coworkers, love the environment, love the customers we have come in (most of the time), but for the past 6 months, God has been pushing me to get out of there. Do I want to leave this job? Absolutely not! So I did what any human does; I did what I wanted to do and didn't listen to God's gentle pushing. So he pushed harder and made it so I absolutely understood that He was telling me to LEAVE. What did it take to have me send in my two-week notice last night? Not being scheduled for two weeks in a row, and when I have been scheduled the last month, it has been for two or three 4 hour shifts a week. Most often having one or all of those cut and given to the new hires (oh I could go ON and ON about the issues that have been coming up there since God first pushed me to leave. Sorry to my co-workers, I partially believe all these issues are because I didn't want to listen). I decided to go in search of a new job about a week ago, hoping it wouldn't take 8 months to lock down a position like the last time I went out searching. And you know how when you are doing exactly what God wants, things just kind of fall into place so quickly and easily? I applied for a BUNCH of seasonal work at one of my favorite stores that I have worked seasonally at in the past - well, to a bunch of different locations - and got 7 responses from 4 stores wanting to interview me. The next day I had an interview set up for the next week, and the day after that I was asked to come in early to a hiring event the next day. I printed out my new resume, polished myself up and marched to the store desperately hoping I would hear back from them and not be ghosted as I have experienced MANY times. Luckily, that did not happen. I was getting along so well in the interview and it seemed to be going extremely well, and then I was offered a job on the spot for a seasonal position, and the interviewer filled me in on how to best get offered a regular position when the season was over.
So yes, I now have a new job, have given my first two-weeks notice ever, and am very excited and quite frightened for what comes next. It has been extremely difficult making ends meet lately, and many times we have had to scrape together enough money to make a meal or live off of as little as possible those last couple of days before paychecks come through. I will not be starting at my new position for another week, which means another pay period with almost no money, barely enough for rent, and a little leftover for gas and groceries. But times like this grow marriages, at least I've heard. I find I'm leaning on my husband and God more and more for comfort during this financial stress.
It doesn't help that my computer is running slower and slower and I'm back in school now.
Oh yes, another thing to throw into the mix of change. I am officially back to school, online college for a Psychology with Applied Behavioral Analytics degree. So far it has been easy. Writing has always come naturally for me, whether it is fiction or research papers, I can usually knock it out pretty quickly. My last research-based paper only took me an hour and a half to complete (it was only 3-4 pages but still). This one I am having a harder time getting into, so I'm allowing myself time to think on it and read through the research until I find something that sparks the paper into getting written. If nothing happens within a couple days I will just force it to start and hopefully get into a rhythm later.
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I have been thinking a lot about what all has had to happen in my life to bring me where I am today and it is honestly so overwhelming. Moving cross-country, getting relentlessly bullied, moving high school to escape bullying and be with my best friend, getting isolated there for some rumors the end of my senior year (only one of which was actually true, and even then it was covered with lies), going to camp, dating someone for a year that pushed me to be a better person but also was a bit of an emotional manipulator, going to college and then dropping out because I wanted something different, working and working and working more, working 3 jobs at once, to dating the man I now call my husband and quitting a job a love to go for a job that will actually help me provide for our little family. I know you didn't ask for a life story but there you go. A brief dissection of my life from 10 years old to now.
In all honesty, this rambling is me hoping that writing something will trigger my brain into having ideas for this paper.
It's not working.
Thanks for putting up with me,
Jaina
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